Its a bigger big world!

This post marks my awakenig from hibernation. Its been ages since I blogged. Since I can now more or less confidently say that I have settled into the MBA life, I guess I can continue being myself. Two months of MBA has taught me just the opposite - not to be myself. Well, not exactly. But somewhat. 'You are in a B-School yaar. Got to open up soon'. Its more than a habit, its a personality trait. It is me. Even though I'm in a B-School. So be it. 'Oh! You are from Chennai? So you know Hindi?' is another favourite one I've heard 9999 times so far.

At the end of the day, fortunately or otherwise, I haven't changed, in accordance with the requests of many of my friends. But a course on 'Organizational Behaviour' has taught me to suppress my dominant trait and express my dormant trait where ever it is necessary. It has worked out fine so far. The dominant trait has been on logger heads with the dormant one and both have got mixed up now. What the heck! Let it be.

Why I sat down to write this is not so clear. With project deadlines approaching and no mood to do it, I just finished watching a movie. A lot of things have been happenning in my life about which I could have written, probably a book or a series of books like Harry Potter. I haven't read a Harry Potter by the way. Now when I'm writing this I realize only strong emotions make me write. The last post was due to a very strong feeling of sadness. Now its the opposite. Its a strong sense of happiness and hope. A dream of an exciting life ahead.

A friend had been to Nepal recently and had sent pictures of his trip. Why I got so inspired by these pictures is something that can be understood only by some. I'm not the right person to describe the beauty of nature. My friend would be a better choice for that. What I can do is what I'm doing right now. A few months back, I was there in my 6*6*4 feet cubicle in a central location of a metro doing what thousands of Indians would be doing. My entire world was confined in a small small world. Not that I haven't travelled ever in my life. I have been to many places outside India with family and within India also, with friends. But post joining MBA, it became a bigger small world.

Never had I ever felt hopeful about the future without any reason like now. I'm a B-School and I should be hopeful, but that's not the reason. Life is bigger. Much bigger than I had ever thought. It is bigger than my thoughts and bigger than I can ever think it would be. Its a bigger big world. There are things in life that are for the pure pleasure of living life. Things that make the other days of slavery worth living. Slavery to the routines of education, earning, marriage, procreation and retirement. Before I sound like a full fledged sadhu, let me stop.

If you want to curse someone for you reading this, curse my friend. The beauty of Nepal made me wish that I could be a nomad wandering all around the world aimlessly, sinking in mother nature's beauty and be one with the nature. No job, no MBA, no competition. Just me and nature. God made me as a single piece and put me into this earth and I might as well live like that. Just mother earth and me.

But since there is MBA, for which I'm a debtor worth eight lac rupees, I probably should return back to doing my Marketing Management project. Nevertheless, mother nature is always with me and all around me. I still hope to be a traveller, even after MBA. And that hope is fuelled by mother nature herself.